I don’t have much time for television these days, but I make the time to watch Adult Swim on the Cartoon Network. Their original shows, or about 80% of them, I find to be “frickin’ awesome”. (Sorry, I am not a wordsmith, and I can think of no better phrase to use at this time.)
One of the shoes I am enjoying is “Squidbillies”, the story of a family of hillbilly, redneck, white trash squids who live in the back woods of Georgia. The show is crude, disgusting, a bit vulgar, and always makes me laugh. Today, I was clearing a few episodes off of my DVR and stumbled upon the episode that originally aired on March 10th. I had somehow missed this one.
The reason I bring this is up is because one of the characters, the local sheriff, had lost his job, and to past the time, he has started a blog. (Hey, I have a blog too!)(Hell, who doesn’t these days. That’s kinda the point of the joke, which I will get to in a moment.) Anyway, the sheriff says about his blog…
“I complain about things, I pretend I’m a critic. You know, describe my dreams and stuff. Hell, I’ve even posted art!”
Click HERE to see the clip of the show with this quote.
This made me laugh because you know, for all the hope I had of making this site unique, it’s just like every other blog out there. No wonder no one is visiting! (Accept for Rick, who has commented on my Randy Pausch entry. Thanks for stopping to say hello Rick!) But, no, I’m not bitter, it just made me step back and laugh at myself. Is this realization going to make me quit? No, I’m going to go on with this site. I have an idea for some new stuff, something different, but I’m still working on it, so you’ll have to check back in the near future. In the mean time, I’ll just keep writing as if I have a reader, and using this site as a good way to pass the time until I die. We all die, so there’s no need to get too worried about it, right?
The sheriffs comments also made me realize that while I have complained (mostly about me site), have pretended to be a critic (heck, i just gave a positive “review” of sorts about Squidbillies, didn’t I?) and have posted art (and all my pieces are still up for sale, if you want them), I have yet to post any of my dreams! Ha! So sit back and get ready!!!
Don’t you hate it when people tell you about their dreams. It’s always so fascinating to them, and they think they are giving you a pek into their inner psyche, but in actually, they are boring your to pieces! We al know it, and yet, we all have done it. And yeah know what, I’m going to do it to you now! (Ha hah ahaha hhaahah ahaha haha ha ha ha !!!)
Actually, these are the stories of three nightmare that I had as a child, that for some reason have stuck with me after all of these years. I’ll try to be brief.
The first dream I has shortly after I received my first hamster. I would dream that in my room, living in the glass aquariums and habitrail tubes I had set up, instead of having little hamsters, I had little people. The people themselves where not the scary part, but what scared me was waht I would do to them. In the dream, I would torment them by picking them up and dropping them. I would force them to remove their clothes and make them “be naked” together. I would wake up feeling so guilty. I wonder what sort of bizarre developmental sexual repression-thing this says about me and my childhood? (and no, I wasn’t abused, thank you.)
The second dream still haunts me to this day. I have it from time to time. It’s always EXACTLY the same. I am alone, and I am approached by a man. He is in shadows, I cant see features. He is dressed in the classic trench coat and fedora look. He tells me that he can make anything in the world disappear for me. Anything. I just have to name it. I don’t believe him. Instead of fearing this man, which I think I should be, instead, I am a bit snarky. “Yeah right!” I respond. I sarcastically answer. “okay, then make the southern hemisphere disappear.” He asks if I am sure, and I say yes.
Then, suddenly, i see the world, as if from space, and there is a small ball of silver light, like an illuminated marble, that is circling the globe. It starts at the north pole, goes down one side to the south pole and then up again. It takes only seconds, but at the same time, time seems to slow down, and it takes forever. And somehow, i know that when this ball gets back to the north pole, the southern hemisphere will suddenly blink of out existence, dooming everyone in the northern hemisphere to a horrible death. (No idea what happens to the people in the southern hemisphere when they disappear, though I don’t imagine it can be any good.)
I never see the globe actually splint in to two and the southern half of the world disappear, in the dream. But, as soon as I see that small ball of silver light start to roll like a polished ball-bearing, well, i am suddenly filled with horror, fear, anxiety, and guilt. And then I wake up, usually breathing hard. I’ve had this dream for 30 years now. Still don’t know what causes it, or what it means. But, it has stuck with me, and now I am sharing it with you.
As for hte third dream, well, you’ve read this far. I’ve decided to spare you. It’s worse then the first two, and honestly, I’m not sure if it was a nightmare, or some repressed memory that will haunt my subconscious for the rest of my days. I wont put you through the misery of this last story… unless you ask nicely!